I've pretty much replaced the word "God" with "Godde" in my own prayer life and thinking. Opening to the Mom-side of Godde in alignment with the Father-side has been a key part of my journey the last few years. It has led me into experiences of love and bliss I simply never experienced before. It's hard to explain, but no experience in the past has the same "ingredients" and energies as are available now. It's a continuing journey and adventure to be sure, full of ups and downs like all of life - especially as changes are taking place in me - but I would not trade the journey for anything and the rest that works has been key.
I know from personal experience that Heavenly Helpers are ready to help each of us live more in the love of Godde as we go. I also know that the rest that works can help. I think that's why Jesus tried to teach the lifestyle to his followers - it's a way of living in alignment with Divine Love, not a set of dogma. It's why he spoke of Divine Love as coming from Godde as "Abba" and also "Sophia" - the feminine image of Divine Wisdom that he used of himself and John the Baptist when he said: "Sophia is justified by Her children" (Matthew 11:18-19 and Luke 7:34-35). It's a Divine Mystery to be sure, and it's one of the mysteries into which he invites us. More power to you in moving more and more into harmonies of Divine Love as you go. Thanks for journeying together!